Coolchica's Journals

Yeah, I look totally different now and have changed

All the shit on here has changed. I dont even look the same.
I know no one here is like real, or is interested in anything rather than becoming famous.

Dont comment me about how happy you are that I added you, you really aren't.

Basically, don't fuck with me.

buzznet is a lie

i cant believe this...

i mean who here is real? i just found out that one of two people i actually talk to on buzznet is a fake...Blace is actually a 13 year old girl who got bored and wanted to show girls how guys really should act. Thats just peachy...fuck...i hate buzznet...dont expect to see me back on this peice of shit...so...who else here isnt who they say they are? it seems like the truth is coming out now...i hate it when people fuck with me so you better tell me the truth now so i wont loose it....fuck you all...i am so fucking pissed...

i dont even know why i added most of you...most of you are some scene kids trying to win a contest or some models that wanted more friends...i dont want fake people as my friends...unless you talk to me i'm deleting you...so basically i have no friends on here anymore...whatever...e-friends are overrated....

I AM LOVED!!

look at what he wrote to me:

hi tanya sorry i had to go so soon i am off to my college now. i like your new nick so hows things. u wont see me for a few days mum dad and the rest of the family r taking me to england for a few days so if u dont see me dont worry, i am not dead. i was in emo for a few hours this morning winding those mugs up i should get a new hobbie but its fun haha. ye i seen your new pic my god your well fit no wonder u drive me wild with lust ha. anyway see u in a few days take care

he makes me happy...no one has said a nicer thing...=]

Blah...

I wish i could feel...

anything i mean really... the same old shit every single day... i really dont want tomorrow to be my last day of school... then i'll have to hang with my family... i dont enjoy their presence... i dont even know why i have a buzznet page... it used to be fun... but now its not... i only have one friend on here that talks to me [foblover]... i feel bad for mikey... i hope he will cheer up... my friend is moving and i will miss her... i have that song "young folk" stuck in my head lol... i'm sick... i have a sinus headache and my sinuses hurt a lot... thats just perfect... i'm sick the last fuckin week of school... i have exams tomorrow... physical science and geography woot... i'm gonna ace 'em... i'm really tired but can never sleep... it sucks... lying there wishing you could sleep but cant... i need another *e-hug*... it really sucks when you're in a relationship and you find out you're the other person because the person you go out with already is in a relationship which makes you the other... so i guess thats who i am to my school now... the bitch all the girls wanna make sure their boyfriends dont look at while the boyfriends dont give a shit about me... i mean really i look like shit who really wants me?... i hate haters... wow... that sounded weird now that i think about it... well... i'm the bitch of Hampton Christian High... thats just great... i hope i seriously dont have to serve that summer detention... that'd suck major monkey balls... i'm so fuckin bored... we having nothing in our fridge except for enchilada sauce, milk, coffee, chocolate syrup, and bolgna... i'm sooo hungry... now that school is over i wont eat food... which sucks... i'm going to start praying again... maybe God will hear me and somehow make my life better... i dont know what happened... now i remember... all my family members started to die... there we go... i hope i can go to the mall... i need clothes... i feel bad a lot because here i am complaining about stuff i need but can get access to while there are starving children in Darfur that would love to be in my shoes... well i guess i'm just a selfish bitch... well... i hope all of you here on buzznet/friends or enemies know that i love you all... it doesnt matter to me if you think you are ugly, or fake... just remember you can lean on me... if i have no one to help my life falls apart... i guess it helps me to help others i dont know... so yeah... if you need advice i'll do my best... if you need a friend i'm here...

Always here for you <3

~~Tanya~~

Yep I've Snapped...

Since my "boyfriend" has dumped me and i'm really mad and sorta sad and just lost it right now i have a few things to get off my chest about some of you people on buzznet and others and dont correct me or get mad cuz i have no clue what really may be going on in your lives i dont even know if you are who you say you are...

Blace: you are hot. you will find someone soon. stop posting all the bulletins and acting desperate! you are going to find that guy or girl cuz u have a great personality and i personaly would kill to be with you! i think lithia's dad didnt know that you were such a great guy to be ripping you guys apart!

Melanie: you're gorgeous! that guy u like will notice what he's missing out on and will definitely want you back and it'll probably be too late by then and you'll be with someone better

Mea: i am sooo happy that your happy now! i think u were wayyy better than your old bf

Mcforb: who are you?? post more stuff about you in ur profile! are you really in ur forties??

and i just really need a hug...i just dont know...

like anyone will read this...

i have been diagnosed with depression and on medication...

i feel like such a loser...here i am unhappy when there are others that feel worse...not like anyone on here gives a shit anywayz but i only got a myspace and buzznet page so i could cheer others up... but doesnt even seem like i'm doin that right either...i keep trying to make myself look prettier by wearing these awful clothes and acting different...its not me...i just guess i would like for someone to like me...i kno i'm not pretty but for my personality maybe? idk...i feel like shit...i wish i had someone to talk to...i wish someone liked me...i try to stick up for my friends when they are spineless and get labeled a bitch... i lash out sometimes...i just want someone to care about me...does anyone reading this know how it feels to try to be there for others and no one be there for you? i just dont know... if you hav read this at least just let me know that u read it...well i dont care...

thanx...

ily

~~Tanya~~

READ IT!!!!!!!

Name:	Tanya
Nicknames:	BVER, TT, Sexy...lol jk
Birthplace:	Hampton
Current Location:	Hampton
Hair Color:	Brown
Eye Color:	Brown
Height:	5 feet 4 inches
Weight:	105 lbs!!
Tatoos?:	i wish...
Piercings?:	ears
Overused Phrase:	burn in hell bitch XD
--Your--
Bedtime:	whenever i finish my homework
Best Physical Feature:	smile or eyes...
Most Embarassing Moment:	my swim top fell of in a pool...=[
Most Missed Memory:	my doggy ='[
First Thought When You Wake Up:	when the fuck will the day be over...
Weakness:	sexy guys six packs...
Best Friends:	jasmine and chelsea
Goal For The Year:	go to a rock concert
Greatest Fears:	spiders, speaking in public, being alone...
--This Or That--
Pepsi or Coke...	Coke
McDonalds or Burger King...	Burger King
Hot Tea or Ice Tea...	Ice Tea
Chocolate or Vanilla...	Chocolate!
Water or Milk...	Water
Coffee or Hot Chocolate...	Coffee
Hugs or Kisses...	Kisses...XD
Cats or Dogs...	Dogs
Summer or Winter...	Winter...no bugs
Scary Movies or Romantic Comedies...	neither...but scary movies...
Love or Money...	LOVE
Green Grapes or Purple Grapes...	Green Grapes
--Lover--
Perferred Eye Color:	idc whatever is perty!
Perferred Hair Color:	idc i'm just happy to get a guy
Short Hair or Long Hair...	Medium
Perferred Height:	idc
Perferred Weight:	not obese...
Looks or Personality...	Personality
Hot or Cute...	HOT!!!!!!!
Skinny...Muscular...or Fat...	MUSCULAR!!!!!!!
--Favs--
Number:	4
Food:	tacos!
Type of Music:	alternative
Candy:	chocolate
Color:	orange
Animal:	dolphins
Drink:	cherry cool-aid
Body Part on the Opposite Sex:	abs...XD
Movie:	Bend It Like Beckham
Past Time:	playing basketball
--Have You Ever--
Drank?	yep
Smoked?	hell no
Been Beaten Up?	nope
Bullied Someone?	i'm sure i have...i feel bad though
Skinny Dipped?	hm...i should try that
Played Spin The Bottle or 7 Minutes In Heaven?	no...should though XD
Toliet Papered Someones House?	nope but sounds fun!
Played Poker W/ Money?	idk how to play that...
Gone Swimming In A White T-Shirt?	yesh XD
Been Tickled So Bad That You Cried?	yep
Been Tickled So Bad That You Couldnt Talk?	yes
Like Someone And Not Tell Them How You Felt?	yep
Went Camping?	god, no
Used The Restroom On A Tree?	fuck no!!!!
Had A Crush On Your Brother/Sister's Friend?	yep
Had A Crush On Your Friend's Brother/Sister?	yes
Walked In The Rain W/out An Umbrella?	yep!
Danced In The Rain?	yesh and it wuz fun!
Told A Joke And Nobody Thought It was Funny?	probably
Been On Stage?	yes
Worn Clothes Your Mom Didnt Approve Of?	of course
Been To A Nude Beach?	um...no
Cursed In Church?	yeah....
Been Called A Whore/Slut For Kissing Someone?	yes
Burnt Yourself?	yes
Been Dumped?	yes
Dumped Someone?	yes
Been In Love?	no
Been Hit On Someone To Old?	yep
Wanted To Be A Model?	yes... that'd b cool
Wanted To Be In The Olmpics?	yes
Bought Lottery Tickets?	no
Made Out In A Car?	no
Cried During A Movie?	yes
Wanted Something You Couldnt Have?	yep
Made Love On The Beach?	noooo
Shoplifted?	no
Seen Someone Shoplift?	yes
Hung Up On Someone?	yesh
Yelled At Your Pet?	yes =[
Gotten Seasick?	yes
Tried To Strip When Drunk?	yeah...
Bought A Thong Cuz The Casier Was Hot?	nnoo
Stalked Someone?	NOOO
Had A Stalker?	yeah...
Played A Prank On Someone And Scared Them?	yep
Been Embarrassed By Someone In Your Family?	of course
Felt Bad About Eating Meat?	yes...
Protested?	yes
Been To An Island?	no
Ate Cuz You Had Nothing Better To Do?	yep doin it now!
Screamed In A Library?	yeah
Made Out W/ A Stranger?	nooo
Made Out W/ Someone Who Wasnt Single?	yeah.... and that'd be y i'm alone now...
Wished A Part Of You Was Different?	yes
Talked To A Complete Stranger?	yeah... i went up to random people in the mall and told them to get crunk for Christ...
Been Sunburned So Bad You Blistered?	no
Kicked A Guy In The Nuts?	yesh
Threw Up In School?	yesh
Recieved A Love Letter That Wasnt Signed?	yep
Wore Something You Hated?	yesh
Wore Something To Match Someone?	no i dont think...
Been To A Luau?	yes!
Cursed Infront Of Your Parents?	yeah...good thing they didnt notice
Been On TV?	yep
Been Outta The Country?	no...
Been Honked At While Walking Down The Sidewalk?	yeah...never happened before...it wuz strange
Won A Pool Game?	no...cuz my dad cheated...
Went To A Party Where You Were The Only Sober One?	no
Went To School/ Work Drunk?	yep
Dieted?	no!
Had An Eating Disorder?	no!
Cheated On Your Other?	no!
Been Cheated On?	yes
Been Paid To Date Someone?	no
Dated Someone That Was Paid or Dared To Date You?	no
Tanned Topless?	maybe
Been Strip Searched?	no answer
Been On A Plane?	yes
Been On A Cruise?	no
Been Pantsed In Public?	yes
Thrown Your Shoe At Someone?	yep! stellettoessss
Broke Someone's Heart?	yes
Sung In The Shower?	yesh
Bought Something Way To Expensive?	no i'm frugal
Done Something Stupid And Laughed At Yourself?	probably
Been Walked In On While You Were Dressing?	yeah...i hav no privacy
Been Walked In On While Showering?	yep...
Ran Out Of A Movie Theater Cuz You Got Scared?	no
Been Kicked Out Of A Mall/ Store?	yeah
Been Kicked Out Of A GoCart Place Cuz You Wrecked The Go Cart?	haha yeah...
Been In Detention?	all the time!
Feel Off A Roof?	no...
Pretended You Were Scared So You Could Cuddle W/ Someone?	no
Been In A Wreck?	yeah
Wrecked So You Wouldnt Hit An Animal?	no
Made Yourself Puck So You Wouldnt Have To Go To School?	yep!
Threatened Someone W/ A Water Gun?	lol yeah
Been Shot?	no
Had A Water Gun War?	no
Been Arrested?

WARNING: CONTROVERSY INVOLVED

after reading the whole 50 cent thing i realized something: not a lot of people like me. Not that i did something or they know me, but I'm a Christian and i see that bothers them. i know a lot of my friends on here dont believe in God and that doesnt bother me, but cursing out Christians does. i wonder that maybe if they knew what a real Christian was they wouldnt hate us so much... i dont now... i hope someone will answer this post...

I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!

hmm.... so bored.... i like this beat... yea....

Hello little boys, little toys
We're the dreams you're believing
Crawling up the walls
Running down your face
Razor sharp, razor clean
Feel the weapon's sensation
On your back...
With loaded guns

Now hold onto me pretty baby
If you want to fly
I'm gonna melt the fever sugar
Rolling back your eyes

We're gonna ride the race cars
We're gonna dance on fire
We're the girls le disko
Supersonic overdrive

So what's it gonna take?
Silver shadow believer....
Spock rocker with your dirty eyes
It's a chance gonna move
Gonna fuck up your ego
Silly boy gonna make you cry

If what they say is true...
You're a boy - and I'm a girl
I will never fall in love with you

We're gonna ride the race cars
We're gonna dance on fire
We're the girls le disko
Supersonic overdrive

I love that song.... grills are ugly! uh.... nasty... but thats just my opinion! how come people at my school are so prejudice but claim to be Christians? they'll always be like 'i hate gay people' and 'i hate muslims' and I am constantly arguing with them about how wrong that is. I think i'm going to go to a different school next year. I'm tired of the two-faced people at my school...

haha wildnout... how funny... hm... no one reads these so i'm cool... so cool... cooler than... hmm.... wuts cool? ice... ice is cool... not the drug...

bye!

Name:	Tanya
Nicknames:	BVER, TT, Sexy...lol jk
Birthplace:	Hampton
Current Location:	Hampton
Hair Color:	Brown
Eye Color:	Brown
Height:	5 feet 4 inches
Weight:	105 lbs!!
Tatoos?:	i wish...
Piercings?:	ears
Overused Phrase:	burn in hell bitch XD
--Your--
Bedtime:	whenever i finish my homework
Best Physical Feature:	smile or eyes...
Most Embarassing Moment:	my swim top fell of in a pool...=[
Most Missed Memory:	my doggy ='[
First Thought When You Wake Up:	when the fuck will the day be over...
Weakness:	sexy guys six packs...
Best Friends:	jasmine and chelsea
Goal For The Year:	go to a rock concert
Greatest Fears:	spiders, speaking in public, being alone...
--This Or That--
Pepsi or Coke...	Coke
McDonalds or Burger King...	Burger King
Hot Tea or Ice Tea...	Ice Tea
Chocolate or Vanilla...	Chocolate!
Water or Milk...	Water
Coffee or Hot Chocolate...	Coffee
Hugs or Kisses...	Kisses...XD
Cats or Dogs...	Dogs
Summer or Winter...	Winter...no bugs
Scary Movies or Romantic Comedies...	neither...but scary movies...
Love or Money...	LOVE
Green Grapes or Purple Grapes...	Green Grapes
--Lover--
Perferred Eye Color:	idc whatever is perty!
Perferred Hair Color:	idc i'm just happy to get a guy
Short Hair or Long Hair...	Medium
Perferred Height:	idc
Perferred Weight:	not obese...
Looks or Personality...	Personality
Hot or Cute...	HOT!!!!!!!
Skinny...Muscular...or Fat...	MUSCULAR!!!!!!!
--Favs--
Number:	4
Food:	tacos!
Type of Music:	alternative
Candy:	chocolate
Color:	orange
Animal:	dolphins
Drink:	cherry cool-aid
Body Part on the Opposite Sex:	abs...XD
Movie:	Bend It Like Beckham
Past Time:	playing basketball
--Have You Ever--
Drank?	yep
Smoked?	hell no
Been Beaten Up?	nope
Bullied Someone?	i'm sure i have...i feel bad though
Skinny Dipped?	hm...i should try that
Played Spin The Bottle or 7 Minutes In Heaven?	no...should though XD
Toliet Papered Someones House?	nope but sounds fun!
Played Poker W/ Money?	idk how to play that...
Gone Swimming In A White T-Shirt?	yesh XD
Been Tickled So Bad That You Cried?	yep
Been Tickled So Bad That You Couldnt Talk?	yes
Like Someone And Not Tell Them How You Felt?	yep
Went Camping?	god, no
Used The Restroom On A Tree?	fuck no!!!!
Had A Crush On Your Brother/Sister's Friend?	yep
Had A Crush On Your Friend's Brother/Sister?	yes
Walked In The Rain W/out An Umbrella?	yep!
Danced In The Rain?	yesh and it wuz fun!
Told A Joke And Nobody Thought It was Funny?	probably
Been On Stage?	yes
Worn Clothes Your Mom Didnt Approve Of?	of course
Been To A Nude Beach?	um...no
Cursed In Church?	yeah....
Been Called A Whore/Slut For Kissing Someone?	yes
Burnt Yourself?	yes
Been Dumped?	yes
Dumped Someone?	yes
Been In Love?	no
Been Hit On Someone To Old?	yep
Wanted To Be A Model?	yes... that'd b cool
Wanted To Be In The Olmpics?	yes
Bought Lottery Tickets?	no
Made Out In A Car?	no
Cried During A Movie?	yes
Wanted Something You Couldnt Have?	yep
Made Love On The Beach?	noooo
Shoplifted?	no
Seen Someone Shoplift?	yes
Hung Up On Someone?	yesh
Yelled At Your Pet?	yes =[
Gotten Seasick?	yes
Tried To Strip When Drunk?	yeah...
Bought A Thong Cuz The Casier Was Hot?	nnoo
Stalked Someone?	NOOO
Had A Stalker?	yeah...
Played A Prank On Someone And Scared Them?	yep
Been Embarrassed By Someone In Your Family?	of course
Felt Bad About Eating Meat?	yes...
Protested?	yes
Been To An Island?	no
Ate Cuz You Had Nothing Better To Do?	yep doin it now!
Screamed In A Library?	yeah
Made Out W/ A Stranger?	nooo
Made Out W/ Someone Who Wasnt Single?	yeah.... and that'd be y i'm alone now...
Wished A Part Of You Was Different?	yes
Talked To A Complete Stranger?	yeah... i went up to random people in the mall and told them to get crunk for Christ...
Been Sunburned So Bad You Blistered?	no
Kicked A Guy In The Nuts?	yesh
Threw Up In School?	yesh
Recieved A Love Letter That Wasnt Signed?	yep
Wore Something You Hated?	yesh
Wore Something To Match Someone?	no i dont think...
Been To A Luau?	yes!
Cursed Infront Of Your Parents?	yeah...good thing they didnt notice
Been On TV?	yep
Been Outta The Country?	no...
Been Honked At While Walking Down The Sidewalk?	yeah...never happened before...it wuz strange
Won A Pool Game?	no...cuz my dad cheated...
Went To A Party Where You Were The Only Sober One?	no
Went To School/ Work Drunk?	yep
Dieted?	no!
Had An Eating Disorder?	no!
Cheated On Your Other?	no!
Been Cheated On?	yes
Been Paid To Date Someone?	no
Dated Someone That Was Paid or Dared To Date You?	no
Tanned Topless?	maybe
Been Strip Searched?	no answer
Been On A Plane?	yes
Been On A Cruise?	no
Been Pantsed In Public?	yes
Thrown Your Shoe At Someone?	yep! stellettoessss
Broke Someone's Heart?	yes
Sung In The Shower?	yesh
Bought Something Way To Expensive?	no i'm frugal
Done Something Stupid And Laughed At Yourself?	probably
Been Walked In On While You Were Dressing?	yeah...i hav no privacy
Been Walked In On While Showering?	yep...
Ran Out Of A Movie Theater Cuz You Got Scared?	no
Been Kicked Out Of A Mall/ Store?	yeah
Been Kicked Out Of A GoCart Place Cuz You Wrecked The Go Cart?	haha yeah...
Been In Detention?	all the time!
Feel Off A Roof?	no...
Pretended You Were Scared So You Could Cuddle W/ Someone?	no
Been In A Wreck?	yeah
Wrecked So You Wouldnt Hit An Animal?	no
Made Yourself Puck So You Wouldnt Have To Go To School?	yep!
Threatened Someone W/ A Water Gun?	lol yeah
Been Shot?	no
Had A Water Gun War?	no
Been Arrested?