Controversy Is My Life, Deal With It

I wish i could feel...

anything i mean really... the same old shit every single day... i really dont want tomorrow to be my last day of school... then i'll have to hang with my family... i dont enjoy their presence... i dont even know why i have a buzznet page... it used to be fun... but now its not... i only have one friend on here that talks to me [foblover]... i feel bad for mikey... i hope he will cheer up... my friend is moving and i will miss her... i have that song "young folk" stuck in my head lol... i'm sick... i have a sinus headache and my sinuses hurt a lot... thats just perfect... i'm sick the last fuckin week of school... i have exams tomorrow... physical science and geography woot... i'm gonna ace 'em... i'm really tired but can never sleep... it sucks... lying there wishing you could sleep but cant... i need another *e-hug*... it really sucks when you're in a relationship and you find out you're the other person because the person you go out with already is in a relationship which makes you the other... so i guess thats who i am to my school now... the bitch all the girls wanna make sure their boyfriends dont look at while the boyfriends dont give a shit about me... i mean really i look like shit who really wants me?... i hate haters... wow... that sounded weird now that i think about it... well... i'm the bitch of Hampton Christian High... thats just great... i hope i seriously dont have to serve that summer detention... that'd suck major monkey balls... i'm so fuckin bored... we having nothing in our fridge except for enchilada sauce, milk, coffee, chocolate syrup, and bolgna... i'm sooo hungry... now that school is over i wont eat food... which sucks... i'm going to start praying again... maybe God will hear me and somehow make my life better... i dont know what happened... now i remember... all my family members started to die... there we go... i hope i can go to the mall... i need clothes... i feel bad a lot because here i am complaining about stuff i need but can get access to while there are starving children in Darfur that would love to be in my shoes... well i guess i'm just a selfish bitch... well... i hope all of you here on buzznet/friends or enemies know that i love you all... it doesnt matter to me if you think you are ugly, or fake... just remember you can lean on me... if i have no one to help my life falls apart... i guess it helps me to help others i dont know... so yeah... if you need advice i'll do my best... if you need a friend i'm here...

Always here for you <3

Tanya