Controversy Is My Life, Deal With It

All the shit on here has changed. I dont even look the same.
I know no one here is like real, or is interested in anything rather than becoming famous.

Dont comment me about how happy you are that I added you, you really aren't.

Basically, don't fuck with me.

i cant believe this...

i mean who here is real? i just found out that one of two people i actually talk to on buzznet is a fake...Blace is actually a 13 year old girl who got bored and wanted to show girls how guys really should act. Thats just peachy...fuck...i hate buzznet...dont expect to see me back on this peice of shit...so...who else here isnt who they say they are? it seems like the truth is coming out now...i hate it when people fuck with me so you better tell me the truth now so i wont loose it....fuck you all...i am so fucking pissed...

i dont even know why i added most of you...most of you are some scene kids trying to win a contest or some models that wanted more friends...i dont want fake people as my friends...unless you talk to me i'm deleting you...so basically i have no friends on here anymore...whatever...e-friends are overrated....

look at what he wrote to me:

hi tanya sorry i had to go so soon i am off to my college now. i like your new nick so hows things. u wont see me for a few days mum dad and the rest of the family r taking me to england for a few days so if u dont see me dont worry, i am not dead. i was in emo for a few hours this morning winding those mugs up i should get a new hobbie but its fun haha. ye i seen your new pic my god your well fit no wonder u drive me wild with lust ha. anyway see u in a few days take care

he makes me happy...no one has said a nicer thing...=]

I wish i could feel...

anything i mean really... the same old shit every single day... i really dont want tomorrow to be my last day of school... then i'll have to hang with my family... i dont enjoy their presence... i dont even know why i have a buzznet page... it used to be fun... but now its not... i only have one friend on here that talks to me [foblover]... i feel bad for mikey... i hope he will cheer up... my friend is moving and i will miss her... i have that song "young folk" stuck in my head lol... i'm sick... i have a sinus headache and my sinuses hurt a lot... thats just perfect... i'm sick the last fuckin week of school... i have exams tomorrow... physical science and geography woot... i'm gonna ace 'em... i'm really tired but can never sleep... it sucks... lying there wishing you could sleep but cant... i need another *e-hug*... it really sucks when you're in a relationship and you find out you're the other person because the person you go out with already is in a relationship which makes you the other... so i guess thats who i am to my school now... the bitch all the girls wanna make sure their boyfriends dont look at while the boyfriends dont give a shit about me... i mean really i look like shit who really wants me?... i hate haters... wow... that sounded weird now that i think about it... well... i'm the bitch of Hampton Christian High... thats just great... i hope i seriously dont have to serve that summer detention... that'd suck major monkey balls... i'm so fuckin bored... we having nothing in our fridge except for enchilada sauce, milk, coffee, chocolate syrup, and bolgna... i'm sooo hungry... now that school is over i wont eat food... which sucks... i'm going to start praying again... maybe God will hear me and somehow make my life better... i dont know what happened... now i remember... all my family members started to die... there we go... i hope i can go to the mall... i need clothes... i feel bad a lot because here i am complaining about stuff i need but can get access to while there are starving children in Darfur that would love to be in my shoes... well i guess i'm just a selfish bitch... well... i hope all of you here on buzznet/friends or enemies know that i love you all... it doesnt matter to me if you think you are ugly, or fake... just remember you can lean on me... if i have no one to help my life falls apart... i guess it helps me to help others i dont know... so yeah... if you need advice i'll do my best... if you need a friend i'm here...

Always here for you <3

Tanya

Since my "boyfriend" has dumped me and i'm really mad and sorta sad and just lost it right now i have a few things to get off my chest about some of you people on buzznet and others and dont correct me or get mad cuz i have no clue what really may be going on in your lives i dont even know if you are who you say you are...

Blace: you are hot. you will find someone soon. stop posting all the bulletins and acting desperate! you are going to find that guy or girl cuz u have a great personality and i personaly would kill to be with you! i think lithia's dad didnt know that you were such a great guy to be ripping you guys apart!

Melanie: you're gorgeous! that guy u like will notice what he's missing out on and will definitely want you back and it'll probably be too late by then and you'll be with someone better

Mea: i am sooo happy that your happy now! i think u were wayyy better than your old bf

Mcforb: who are you?? post more stuff about you in ur profile! are you really in ur forties??

and i just really need a hug...i just dont know...

i have been diagnosed with depression and on medication...

i feel like such a loser...here i am unhappy when there are others that feel worse...not like anyone on here gives a shit anywayz but i only got a myspace and buzznet page so i could cheer others up... but doesnt even seem like i'm doin that right either...i keep trying to make myself look prettier by wearing these awful clothes and acting different...its not me...i just guess i would like for someone to like me...i kno i'm not pretty but for my personality maybe? idk...i feel like shit...i wish i had someone to talk to...i wish someone liked me...i try to stick up for my friends when they are spineless and get labeled a bitch... i lash out sometimes...i just want someone to care about me...does anyone reading this know how it feels to try to be there for others and no one be there for you? i just dont know... if you hav read this at least just let me know that u read it...well i dont care...

thanx...

ily

Tanya